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【上帝的幽默感】《鴻,三代中國女人的故事》讀後感

 

CheungYoun這本書在中國是禁書,因為它敘述了從清末到中共掌權後,三代中國女人在轉變中的中國社會裡所經歷的一切。作者張戎因寫這本書而得到英國 1992 年記實文學的最高榮譽獎。我在溫哥華的深秋裡讀完這本書,在那些日子裡,心裡有說不出來的憂傷。張戎其實是整個中國裡比較幸運的一位,她的父母都是國家高級幹部。當別人都沒得吃,沒得住時,他們家還是什麼都有。但是從這位高幹子女的筆下,卻一絲絲一縷縷地詮釋了有如魔鬼當道的政治,如何改變了整個歷史文化悠久的中國社會和民風。

在台灣長大的我,也讀過一些創傷文學,好像陳若曦就是曾經嚮往回歸祖國的一位台灣作
家,她的許多著作都和改變中的中國社會有關,雖然描寫深刻,卻不會讓人有痛的感覺。我也有許多從國內來的好朋友,但他們都很少談到過去。對於大躍進、全國鍊鋼以及其他各樣的"運動",我都只有皮毛的認知。因此當我們傳福音時,特別是從國內來的老人家,他們說被騙了一輩子,不想再接受什麼信仰時,我其實不明白他們在說什麼。我不明白什麼叫做"被騙了一輩子"。

張戎的父母都是非常盡忠之輩,為了理想可以放棄一切,把 "黨" 的需要置於一切之上,就是受了委屈也是一忍再忍,不分是非地忍。但是有一天,當"黨"派一些道德水準不怎麼好的人來整他們時,那些可怕的猙獰面孔就露出來了。張戎的父親被關到精神失常,她的母親一向樂於助人,沒有人要鬥她,卻被從外面找來的流氓痛毆。我的一位老朋友聽了,說:"這種事常有的哦,比這個更糟的事還有的哦!"報私仇的比比皆是。除了肉體和精神的虐待,有病不能醫,患糖尿病的不給藥吃,反而注射葡萄糖。那個社會裡的 "打手" 啊,有各種折磨人的方法。

文革的目的原來是要整掉所有的高層幹部,所有的年青人都變成魔鬼的爪牙,整個中國社
會好像薄餅一樣被翻過面。在西方,我們看到有些青少年糾眾殺死同伴的新聞,已經覺得事態嚴重;試想所有的年輕人都起來打人,不再尊敬年長的,不再對人有禮貌,每個小青年都變成一隻隻凶狠的獵狗,去咬教過他們的老師,撕碎各級的首長。恐怖啊!幹部之家尚被清算鬥爭,其他的黑五類所受的更是非人待遇,並且株連子孫。人間地獄也不過如此吧。

這本書讓我對和我同一代的中國人有了更深刻的認識。記得剛剛開始辦查經班,做中國事
工時,最大的感覺就是:他們不會笑。我平常喜歡開玩笑,總想製造一些輕鬆的效果;好久以後,才有人跟我一樣哈哈大笑。讀了這本書之後,有一個週日在敬拜時,回應詩歌是 "Shine,  Jesus Shine"(讓耶穌的光照亮)。我平常很喜歡這首歌,但是那天不知為何,一聽到這首歌,尤其是第二句:"讓耶穌的光照進最深的黑暗之中",眼淚嘩地就流下來。讀了這本書,我開始明白何為 "黑暗"。作者在她父親死後寫了一段話:"毛澤東的中國容不了他,因為他想做一個誠實正直的人。他終生為之奮鬥的理想欺騙了他,這欺騙使他無法繼續生存。"

雖然中國的噩夢似乎已逐漸遠去,有許多年輕人根本不知道何謂文革或其他,但是還有許
多中國人是那個時代的倖存者,帶著被欺騙的痛苦繼續在適應時代的轉變。他們不敢再相信任何信仰,有許多人追求金錢,轉向佛教,因為那看起來最安全。但是《讓耶穌的光照亮》那首歌讓我明白,中國何等需要耶穌,中國人何等需要耶穌的光,照亮他們靈魂裡深沉的黑暗,使他們的靈魂得到真正的釋放和自由。

12月25日原是羅馬曆書的冬至節,是一年裡黑夜最長、白晝最短的一天;崇拜太陽神及農神的異教徒都把這一天當作春天的希望,萬物復甦的開始;羅馬教會為了讓社會基督教化,便把聖誕節也定在這個時候。雖然不是耶穌誕生的正日,但以此日來記念耶穌的誕生卻很有意義,因為唯有耶穌的光可以照亮最深的黑暗,也唯有耶穌才是世界真正的希望。

雖然有人反對慶祝聖誕,但是不慶祝豈不是漠視耶穌的降生嗎?耶穌的降生對全人類有何
等大的意義,怎能不慶祝?怎能不記念?怎能不感謝?中國需要耶穌,中國人更需要耶穌,每一個人都需要耶穌,讓我們在更深的理解之後,用耶穌的光照亮黑暗的大地。

 

      聖經金句 (Bible Verses)

喜樂 Joy

喜樂的心乃是良藥;憂傷的靈使骨枯乾。箴言 17:22
A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. Proverbs 17:22

然而,我要因耶和華歡欣,因救我的 神喜樂。哈巴谷書 3:18
yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. Habakkuk 3:18

要常常喜樂,不住的禱告,凡事謝恩。帖撒羅尼迦前書 5:16-17
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17

饒恕 Forgiveness

主啊,你本為良善,樂意饒恕人,有豐盛的慈愛賜給凡求告你的人。詩篇 86:5
You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you. Psalm 86:5

你不要說:“我要以惡報惡”;要等候耶和華,他必拯救你。箴言 20:22
Do not say, “I’ll pay you back for this wrong!” Wait for the LORD, and he will avenge you. Proverbs 6:14

你們饒恕人的過犯,你們的天父也必饒恕你們的過犯;馬太福音 6:14
For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. Matthew 6:14

你們不饒恕人的過犯,你們的天父也必不饒恕你們的過犯。馬太福音 6:15
But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matthew 6:15

你們各人若不從心裡饒恕你的弟兄,我天父也要這樣待你們了。馬太福音 18:35
This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart. Matthew 18:35

謙卑 Humility

敬畏耶和華是智慧的訓誨;尊榮以前,必有謙卑。箴言 15:33
Wisdom’s instruction is to fear the LORD, and humility comes before honor. Proverbs 15:33

敬畏耶和華心存謙卑,就得富有、尊榮、生命為賞賜。箴言 22:4
Humility is the fear of the LORD; its wages are riches and honor and life. Proverbs 22:4

凡事不可結黨,不可貪圖虛浮的榮耀;只要存心謙卑,各人看別人比自己強。腓立比書 2:3
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves. Philippians 2:3

但他賜更多的恩典,所以經上說:神阻擋驕傲的人,賜恩給謙卑的人。雅各書 4:6
But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” James 4:6

驕傲 Pride

驕傲來,羞恥也來;謙遜人卻有智慧。箴言 11:2
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. Proverbs 11:2

驕傲只啟爭競;聽勸言的,卻有智慧。箴言 13:10
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves. Proverbs 13:10

驕傲在敗壞以先;狂心在跌倒之前。箴言 16:18
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Proverbs 16:18

但他賜更多的恩典,所以經上說:神阻擋驕傲的人,賜恩給謙卑的人。雅各書 4:6
But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” James 4:6

忍耐 Patience

愚妄人怒氣全發;智慧人忍氣含怒。箴言 29:11
Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end. Proverbs 29:11

並且你們要為我的名,被眾人恨惡,惟有忍耐到底的,必然得救。馬可福音 13:13
Everyone will hate you because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. Mark 13:13

不但如此,就是在患難中也是歡歡喜喜的。因為知道患難生忍耐。羅馬書 5:3
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance. Romans 5:3

我們行善,不可喪志;若不灰心,到了時候就要收成加拉太書 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

你們也當忍耐,堅固你們的心,因為主來的日子近了。雅各書 5:8
You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near. James 5:8

溫柔 Meekness

回答柔和,使怒消退;言語暴戾,觸動怒氣。箴言 15:1
A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1

溫柔的人有福了,因為他們必承受地土。馬太福音 5:5
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Matthew 5:5

用溫柔勸戒那抵擋的人;或者 神給他們悔改的心,可以明白真道。提摩太後書 2:25
Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth. 2 Timothy 2:25

只要以裡面存著長久溫柔、安靜的心為妝飾;這在 神面前是極寶貴的。彼得前書 3:4
Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. 1 Peter 3:4

嫉妒 Envy

不要為作惡的心懷不平,也不要向那行不義的生出嫉妒。詩篇 37:1
Do not fret because of those who are evil or be envious of those who do wrong. Psalm 37:1

心中安靜是肉體的生命;嫉妒是骨中的朽爛。箴言 14:30
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. Proverbs 14:30

在何處有嫉妒、紛爭,就在何處有擾亂和各樣的壞事。雅各書 3:16
For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. James 3:16

生氣 Anger

當止住怒氣,離棄忿怒;不要心懷不平,以致作惡。詩篇 37:8
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. Psalm 37:8

好生氣的人,不可與他結交;暴怒的人,不可與他來往。箴言 22:24
Do not make friends with a hot-tempered person, do not associate with one easily angered. Proverbs 22:24

愚妄人怒氣全發;智慧人忍氣含怒。箴言 29:11
Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end. Proverbs 29:11

生氣卻不要犯罪.不可含怒到日落。以弗所書 4:26
In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. Ephesians 4:26

我親愛的弟兄們,這是你們所知道的,但你們各人要快快的聽,慢慢的說,慢慢的動怒,因為人的怒氣並不成就 神的義。雅各書 1:19,20
My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. James 1:19,20

災難 Calamity

謹守口與舌的、就保守自己免受災難。箴言 21:23
Those who guard their mouths and their tongues keep themselves from calamity. Proverbs 21:23

民要攻打民、國要攻打國、多處必有地震、饑荒.這都是災難的起頭。馬可福音 13:8
Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be earthquakes in various places, and famines. These are the beginning of birth pains. Mark 13:8

憂愁 Worry

你們不要憂愁、因靠耶和華而得的喜樂是你們的力量。尼希米記 8:10
Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength. Nehemiah 8:10

主雖使人憂愁, 還要照他諸般的慈愛發憐憫。耶利米哀歌 3:32
Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. Lamentations 3:32

凡勞苦擔重擔的人,可以到我這裡來,我就使你們得安息。馬太福音 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

我留下平安給你們、我將我的平安賜給你們.我所賜的、不像世人所賜的.你們心裏不要憂愁、也不要膽怯。約翰福音 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

應當一無掛慮,只要凡事藉著禱告、祈求和感謝,將你們所要的告訴神。神所賜出人意外的平安,必在基督耶穌裡,保守你們的心懷意念。腓立比書 4:6,7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6,7

因此, 你們是大有喜樂, 但如今, 在百般的試煉中暫時憂愁。彼得前書 1:6
In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 1 Peter 1:6

患難 Trouble, Suffering

義人多有苦難,但耶和華救他脫離這一切。詩篇 34:19
The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all. Psalm 34:19

神是我們的避難所,是我們的力量,是我們在患難中隨時的幫助!詩篇 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1

耶和華本為善,在患難的日子為人的保障,並且認得那些投靠他的人。那鴻書 1:7
The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him. Nahum 1:7

為義受逼迫的人有福了,因為天國是他們的。馬太福音 5:10
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 5:10

不但如此,就是在患難中,也是歡歡喜喜的。因為知道患難生忍耐。羅馬書 5:3
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; Romans 5:3

我想現在的苦楚,若比將來要顯於我們的榮耀,就不足介意了。羅馬書 8:18
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:18

因為你們蒙恩,不但得以信服基督,並要為他受苦。腓立比書 1:29
For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him. Philippians 1:29

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