【特稿】視力「重生」記

 

引言:詹崇新長老在美國諾發系統公司任職,因總公司業務需要,將他調往新加坡,擔任亞洲區的總裁,就在一切事務就緒時,他的身體健康起了變化......

eye 1一如以往,我踏入繁忙的辦公室,開始忙碌的一天。才進門,就看到桌上成疊的卷宗,都是必須仔細批閱的公文。除了批公文,開例行重要會議外,也常因公務需要到各地視察,行事曆總是排得滿滿的。我定定神後,就將桌上文件仔細地讀著,「好痛!」一陣突來的劇痛衝擊著我的頭,痛得我不得不放下手上公文,支著頭休息。我納悶地想,自己身體向來很好,很少生病,不過倒是這三年似乎未老先衰,健康變得比較差。起先是常在看東西(尤其是字)時會多個影像,原不怎麼在意,也因工作實在太忙,拖了許久才去配老花眼鏡。還記得驗光師的訝異,「詹先生,我看您還是去看眼科吧!」我真去找大夫檢查,先後兩次詳細的檢查,都沒檢查出什麼,但三年來,我的眼睛不但找不到病因,視力也越來越壞。

「你趕快找醫生再去檢查一下,一定要找出病因!」「對嚒,爸你再去看醫生,看到底是什麼原因。」回到家和妻兒提到這事,他們立刻緊張地要我趕快去找眼科醫師。妻子透過朋友找到一位眼科醫生,要我儘快去見他。「詹先生,我懷疑你腦中有瘤。」醫生的神情凝重。「什麼?」我傻了眼,「怎麼會?」「你的眼睛外側視力已經喪失,而且是對稱的。」「不!我不相信!這不是真的!」我努力地鎮定自己,告訴自己醫生判錯了。照過斷層掃瞄後,醫生篤定地說:「詹先生,經過掃瞄,證實你腦中真有個很大的瘤!」我不曉得自己是怎麼走出診療室的,腦海不斷地浮著兩個斗大的字:「腦瘤」!我竟然得了腦瘤!恐懼從心底深處陣陣襲來。


沉重地回到家,妻兒急忙地問:「醫生怎麼說?」「我...,鼓起很大的勇氣,我告訴他們檢查結果,刹時,空氣似乎凝住了,我們都沒有說話,憂傷的情緒在我們中間擴散著...。

當天晚上,我輾轉反側,直到半夜,發現妻也沒睡,我知道這衝擊對她而言實在太大。我不知道該如何安慰她。正思索期間,她說:「既然睡不著,就起來讀聖經吧!」長久以來,基督信仰一直都是支持我們度過人生高山低谷最重要的力量,於是我們打開每天必讀的聖經材料,當天的主題經文是:「我留下平安給你們,我將我的平安賜給你們。」讀了這段話,我們都感到一股說不出來的平靜, 不再那麼無助,知道有上帝陪伴我們。再度躺下,我們很快就進入夢鄉。

為能專心尋求診治,我向公司請假,偕妻去看一位腦神經外科醫生。「詹先生,你腦中的瘤有六.八公分大,會影響腦下垂體,位置在前額腦幹部位。腫瘤很大,需要以通過鼻腔的精密手術切除,這在新加坡是很有經驗的。」雖然醫師很有信心,我還是心如吊桶七上八下,不敢輕易嘗試。於是透過妹妹與好友的協助,尋求美國、北京的第二意見,詢問的結果都是需要動手術。「這手術若有閃失...」我根本不敢再想下去,我放心不下家人,也不能確定自己能否完全康復,當自己又不知所措時,每天早上讀的聖經就成為最大幫助。「上帝,請幫助爸爸, 讓他能平安度過這個危機,求祢讓他不要害怕...」 妻兒懇切地為我的病禱告,因著這病, 我們全家的心更緊靠在一起,使我有勇氣面對每一天的檢查。

「你可以到美國來開刀,機票已為你準備好了。」當我在進行繁瑣的檢查時, 一次與公司的電話會議中被告知這消息,原本我傾向留在新加坡開刀,對妻兒都方便,但接到這消息,我和妻幾經考慮,決定搭機赴美梅爾醫學中心就醫。

「你的腫瘤很大,所以失敗率會比一般同性質的腫瘤高。」梅爾醫院的主治大夫說。會有兩個可能的危險情形:一是視力喪失,因為腫瘤上半部已壓到視神經三年多,摘除腫瘤後不知道視神經能不能恢復;另外就是手術過程中失血引起昏迷而喪命。 沒想到不是摘除就沒事了,還有可能眼睛失明!如果我眼睛失明,怎能過以後的日子? 不但無法正常生活,更拖累家人,這可怎麼好?

「上帝,求祢幫助,我真的不知道該怎麼辦?」我向上帝禱告,而後我讀到一段經文:「要向著上帝,就必活在光中。」是神的回應!我相信上帝會讓我看見的, 心情平靜許多,可以面對即將而來的手術。

eye 2手術進行了五個小時,隨後送入加護病房觀察,「我沒有失明!太好了!」 當我睜開眼,我清楚地見到妻與妹妹!我不但度過難關,視野也比手術前更明亮, 若非鼻腔被填滿充物塞住得用口呼吸,偒口疼痛,我早就跳起來歡呼了!轉入一般病房後的隔天,醫生做視力測試,「恭喜你,你的視力已從失去百分之五十回到百分之八十五,往後還會繼續好轉。」

出院前,我再度去見醫生,醫生說:「你的腫瘤是梅爾中心二十五年來最大的,你能恢復得這麼好,真是難得。」聽醫生這麼說,我除了感恩還是感恩。

從發現腫瘤到赴美開刀,再安然返家只有三週的時間,時間雖短,卻讓我深深地體會與死亡擦身而過的感覺,會有害怕卻常能在禱告中,體會從上帝而來的平安。從開刀到現在,我沒有任何後遺症,或許除了醫學進步外,更應該相信是上帝的幫助吧!

 

      聖經金句 (Bible Verses)

喜樂 Joy

喜樂的心乃是良藥;憂傷的靈使骨枯乾。箴言 17:22
A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. Proverbs 17:22

然而,我要因耶和華歡欣,因救我的 神喜樂。哈巴谷書 3:18
yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. Habakkuk 3:18

要常常喜樂,不住的禱告,凡事謝恩。帖撒羅尼迦前書 5:16-17
Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17

饒恕 Forgiveness

主啊,你本為良善,樂意饒恕人,有豐盛的慈愛賜給凡求告你的人。詩篇 86:5
You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to you. Psalm 86:5

你不要說:“我要以惡報惡”;要等候耶和華,他必拯救你。箴言 20:22
Do not say, “I’ll pay you back for this wrong!” Wait for the LORD, and he will avenge you. Proverbs 6:14

你們饒恕人的過犯,你們的天父也必饒恕你們的過犯;馬太福音 6:14
For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. Matthew 6:14

你們不饒恕人的過犯,你們的天父也必不饒恕你們的過犯。馬太福音 6:15
But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matthew 6:15

你們各人若不從心裡饒恕你的弟兄,我天父也要這樣待你們了。馬太福音 18:35
This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart. Matthew 18:35

謙卑 Humility

敬畏耶和華是智慧的訓誨;尊榮以前,必有謙卑。箴言 15:33
Wisdom’s instruction is to fear the LORD, and humility comes before honor. Proverbs 15:33

敬畏耶和華心存謙卑,就得富有、尊榮、生命為賞賜。箴言 22:4
Humility is the fear of the LORD; its wages are riches and honor and life. Proverbs 22:4

凡事不可結黨,不可貪圖虛浮的榮耀;只要存心謙卑,各人看別人比自己強。腓立比書 2:3
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves. Philippians 2:3

但他賜更多的恩典,所以經上說:神阻擋驕傲的人,賜恩給謙卑的人。雅各書 4:6
But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” James 4:6

驕傲 Pride

驕傲來,羞恥也來;謙遜人卻有智慧。箴言 11:2
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom. Proverbs 11:2

驕傲只啟爭競;聽勸言的,卻有智慧。箴言 13:10
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves. Proverbs 13:10

驕傲在敗壞以先;狂心在跌倒之前。箴言 16:18
Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Proverbs 16:18

但他賜更多的恩典,所以經上說:神阻擋驕傲的人,賜恩給謙卑的人。雅各書 4:6
But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says:“God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.” James 4:6

忍耐 Patience

愚妄人怒氣全發;智慧人忍氣含怒。箴言 29:11
Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end. Proverbs 29:11

並且你們要為我的名,被眾人恨惡,惟有忍耐到底的,必然得救。馬可福音 13:13
Everyone will hate you because of me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. Mark 13:13

不但如此,就是在患難中也是歡歡喜喜的。因為知道患難生忍耐。羅馬書 5:3
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance. Romans 5:3

我們行善,不可喪志;若不灰心,到了時候就要收成加拉太書 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Galatians 6:9

你們也當忍耐,堅固你們的心,因為主來的日子近了。雅各書 5:8
You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near. James 5:8

溫柔 Meekness

回答柔和,使怒消退;言語暴戾,觸動怒氣。箴言 15:1
A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1

溫柔的人有福了,因為他們必承受地土。馬太福音 5:5
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. Matthew 5:5

用溫柔勸戒那抵擋的人;或者 神給他們悔改的心,可以明白真道。提摩太後書 2:25
Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth. 2 Timothy 2:25

只要以裡面存著長久溫柔、安靜的心為妝飾;這在 神面前是極寶貴的。彼得前書 3:4
Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. 1 Peter 3:4

嫉妒 Envy

不要為作惡的心懷不平,也不要向那行不義的生出嫉妒。詩篇 37:1
Do not fret because of those who are evil or be envious of those who do wrong. Psalm 37:1

心中安靜是肉體的生命;嫉妒是骨中的朽爛。箴言 14:30
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. Proverbs 14:30

在何處有嫉妒、紛爭,就在何處有擾亂和各樣的壞事。雅各書 3:16
For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. James 3:16

生氣 Anger

當止住怒氣,離棄忿怒;不要心懷不平,以致作惡。詩篇 37:8
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. Psalm 37:8

好生氣的人,不可與他結交;暴怒的人,不可與他來往。箴言 22:24
Do not make friends with a hot-tempered person, do not associate with one easily angered. Proverbs 22:24

愚妄人怒氣全發;智慧人忍氣含怒。箴言 29:11
Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end. Proverbs 29:11

生氣卻不要犯罪.不可含怒到日落。以弗所書 4:26
In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry. Ephesians 4:26

我親愛的弟兄們,這是你們所知道的,但你們各人要快快的聽,慢慢的說,慢慢的動怒,因為人的怒氣並不成就 神的義。雅各書 1:19,20
My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. James 1:19,20

災難 Calamity

謹守口與舌的、就保守自己免受災難。箴言 21:23
Those who guard their mouths and their tongues keep themselves from calamity. Proverbs 21:23

民要攻打民、國要攻打國、多處必有地震、饑荒.這都是災難的起頭。馬可福音 13:8
Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be earthquakes in various places, and famines. These are the beginning of birth pains. Mark 13:8

憂愁 Worry

你們不要憂愁、因靠耶和華而得的喜樂是你們的力量。尼希米記 8:10
Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength. Nehemiah 8:10

主雖使人憂愁, 還要照他諸般的慈愛發憐憫。耶利米哀歌 3:32
Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. Lamentations 3:32

凡勞苦擔重擔的人,可以到我這裡來,我就使你們得安息。馬太福音 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

我留下平安給你們、我將我的平安賜給你們.我所賜的、不像世人所賜的.你們心裏不要憂愁、也不要膽怯。約翰福音 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

應當一無掛慮,只要凡事藉著禱告、祈求和感謝,將你們所要的告訴神。神所賜出人意外的平安,必在基督耶穌裡,保守你們的心懷意念。腓立比書 4:6,7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6,7

因此, 你們是大有喜樂, 但如今, 在百般的試煉中暫時憂愁。彼得前書 1:6
In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 1 Peter 1:6

患難 Trouble, Suffering

義人多有苦難,但耶和華救他脫離這一切。詩篇 34:19
The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all. Psalm 34:19

神是我們的避難所,是我們的力量,是我們在患難中隨時的幫助!詩篇 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1

耶和華本為善,在患難的日子為人的保障,並且認得那些投靠他的人。那鴻書 1:7
The LORD is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him. Nahum 1:7

為義受逼迫的人有福了,因為天國是他們的。馬太福音 5:10
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 5:10

不但如此,就是在患難中,也是歡歡喜喜的。因為知道患難生忍耐。羅馬書 5:3
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; Romans 5:3

我想現在的苦楚,若比將來要顯於我們的榮耀,就不足介意了。羅馬書 8:18
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8:18

因為你們蒙恩,不但得以信服基督,並要為他受苦。腓立比書 1:29
For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him. Philippians 1:29

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